13.8.05

should III

when I think of what I should do - the 'should' here

is a projection of a state of affairs

it is to outline a reality

it is to describe how things can be - will be - if certain
actions are taken

it is to imagine an outcome

and indeed a heavily qualified - state of affairs

one that presumes - in short - the world will allow such
an outcome -

and the reason for this projection?

in the straightest of terms it is to wish - to want such
to come to fruition

the 'want' here - is a moral want

I wonder though if in fact it is in principle any different
from any other want but for the fact that it is more complex

I have in mind here - I want a cup of coffee - no great drama
- few variables to control

I want a better world for everyone - simple idea you may say
- yes - but you look into it - the issues are very complex -
the possibilities for action are many and varied - the
reasonings necessary to make a difference - to bring about
the result or a result (already issues are defined) - not
straightforward - much to think upon much to depend upon

and why does anyone want this or similar outcomes - frankly
it doesn't matter - the fact is they do

it's a battle of outcomes

and in the event of success - we say 'that's good' -

but - even in saying this - we know it is never finished -
never fixed

what was desired at one time - may not be at another -

one's conception of a better life - a better world -
however you want to put it - is rarely stable

that we think in such a way - is not a matter of choice -
is not an option -

it is just a fact of human beings