the fact of consciousness
consciousness is known as immediate - only on reflection
this is the base paradox of consciousness
immediacy is a product of reflection -
to understand this requires a higher order reflection -
reflection on consciousness as such
consciousness as the object of consciousness
here is found the self
this though is no solution to the dilemma of how the
immediate is not immediate - it is just a restatement
of it in terms of the self - the immediate self a
construct of reflection?
consciousness comes off here as essentially - irrational -
as it were the stuff - we begin with - before reason
analysis is the task set for - this 'urstoff' -
and here - the metaphysical origin of hope -
a belief that consciousness can resolve itself - of paradox -
this though is really the attempt - the belief -
to make consciousness - what it is not
we have as a consequence - the notion of science -
empirical science
the world as one dimensional - and out there
this is all very well - depending on how it is viewed
the physical world - the surface world - is indeed -
out there
the fact is though - it is only known - from the inside
and you cannot resolve the dilemma of consciousness -
by projection
projection and denial
consciousness into the surface - and denial of the internal
this does not work - at least on an intellectual level -
and for this reason -
it cannot even be sustained imaginatively -
you cannot be rid of consciousness
the question then is why?
why does such a matter arise -
does it?
well at the least it can - and much of human activity -
if not all can be regarded as a response the problem of
consciousness - reconciling itself - to what?
to itself -
the thing is we don't know what this would be - what it
could be - what it would look like
and every attempt at it is futile -
we cannot step outside - and see
so what is to be done?
I think there is only relief
no solution - no resolution
and relief - from the paradox of being - is not I think
necessarily good or bad
it is an option
a question of how to be -
explore the paradox - or seek relief
and of this relief?
my hunch is immersion -
and immersion in consciousness -
immersion in activity -
reflection will always be - to some extent -
a dimension of any act
the secret I think is to minimize reflective experience -
to as it were weight activity in favour of the non-reflective
the immersion of self in self
be clear this is not knowledge -
this is relief - metaphysical / psychological -
and I think the moment of delight
everyone should indulge
at least - to refresh - before going back to the fray
and the great secret of it all is there is no secret -
any pursuit can be - to varying degrees - non-reflective
it is - for children - as natural as the day
for adults - not as easy
mostly it requires some discipline - the learning of how
to enjoy
spontaneously - non-reflectively - non-critically
it is learning - how to un-learn -
so even here - a possible resolution - or what I call relief -
presupposes - paradox
no escaping - only moments of not-knowing
